Today was the staff lunch and we all went out to Pita Jungle. I absolutely love this place. It was the first place I found and tried the food I want to marry: hummus. The best part was that my boss was treating us to lunch before the holidays.
As I was sitting down, they came and brought the menus. As I was looking through, I was determined to find something that was low in calories. I was determined to go off of my plan. I was even looking things up in myfitnesspal to see what I could get away with eating and not see a change in the scale the next day.
Then a question popped in my head. What do you want more? At that moment, I wanted to eat lunch with my coworkers, but in the long run, I wanted to lose weight more than to have a cheat meal. With that question in my head, I told the waiter that I would not be ordering.
Part of me felt pretty bad by not being able to join in with the food that my coworkers were eating. In the end, will it be worth it to do this? Even of it means not enjoying life/food in the meantime? While I was still in a good mood, I feel like I am depriving myself. In reality, I am. I don’t like the feel of it, but it needs to be done.