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WTB Sleep!

Howdy interwebs!
Weekend was a bit if a blur, so I’ll try and make some sense of it this morning.

First things first: left the phone at home this morning. Feeling awkward without part of me is missing. Also a little panicked that if an emergency happens, I’m a bit screwed. My phone is also my wallet. Wallet has gym ID. Looks like tonight is a good night for Zumba or a run. I’m thinking Zumba because I still need to work on moving these hips. They’re in there somewhere!

Friday night:
My buddy Kim and I decided to tag along with Nelson to First Fridays. It’s kind of a huge art show each month in Phoenix. I was going to purchase something, but nothing truly looked “hand crafted.” I hate being ripped off. After walking around for a bit, we decide to head to a local gay bar.

I’d been to this one before, and it was as busy as always. Side note, it is odd seeing youtube video owners who you have followed for years in person. Almost like seeing a mini celebrity. Anywho…this one guy walks past me and I he was tall, older, and not really my type. A few moments later, this woman approaches me and said that guy was checking me out. She then reaches into her woven basket and proceeds to give me a rock with the word “truth” written on it with a link to a web page. She was trying to spread kindness. She then mentions that the guy that walked by was her friend and he had said that I was completely his type. So, I agree to meet him and it turns out they belong to a church and this rock was her final project. Only a little creepy, but a little sweet. He asks for my number, and I’m trying to make some new buddies, so I give it to him. Turns out he has a daughter, too. Interesting things happen at bars.

A few pictures from the night.



We head over to another bar and just hang out for a bit. I still wish I could dance/didn’t care what other people thought of me. Before the weight loss, I used to do everything possible to ensure that I would not draw attention to myself. Some of that still exists.

Actually had a date on Saturday. We met up to go see the Evil Dead. I LOVE horror movies, but still watch them from behind my hands. We meet up and the conversation is nice enough. It was still a bit early, so we walk around the mall a bit. This one store was a LoveSac store. Oh my! Those things were super comfy! I’m seriously considering getting one for my home. While sitting and chatting with the store clerk, she asks if we are on a date. Am I that obvious? Lol. The date responds that it is a date, so I suppose that’s positive points for me.

After the movie we head to Fez for lunch. The conversation went well enough. Just used those counseling listening skills to good use. He did comment that he felt like he did a lot of the talking though. I need to assert myself more then.

Later that night, I go out for Karaoke with another group of friends. The usual karaoke bar isn’t doing karaoke that night, so we switch to another that is. I still don’t sing on the mic, but it’s fun to sing along with everyone else.

Took Leo to the groomer. He had an 830 appointment and I didn’t get him back until 230. Very sad. He looks so cute now, tho. Saw Iron Man 3 with a buddy and then went home.


All in all, not the best weekend for the diet and weight loss, but a good weekend for me and enjoying life. It certainly bears staying in and playing video games.

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So hard to resist.





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Letting it ride

Yesterday was another good day for the diet.

I almost feel like I’m starting this whole weight loss process over again. When doing calorie restriction, you get hungry…quickly. It takes a few weeks for your body and mind to get used to the lesser amount of food. The hunger really never goes away. Instead, you learn to view it differently. I know my body is using itself for fuel.

Instead of the hunger pangs, it begins to feel more like a fire. I use that feeling to motivate me. I know this sounds strange, but I kind of liken it to the Chronicles of Riddick. The Necromongers, in their transition to become themselves, eventually got to the point where they embraced the pain of the transition.

Today is a trial day for me. The Math department is having a dessert competition. Here is my entry:


A fruit pizza. Not the most healthy thing, but I’ve managed to resist it so far. I think I’m going to drop it off and get myself away from the area. No sweets for me today.

Today is also the last day of this trial cohort for this program that my committee has put together at work. We are celebrating at Chili’s. Again, I’ll have to avoid temptation. I’ll get a diet soda and enjoy my time with the coworkers. I have my dinner at home that will do me better than anything there. And…there’s always the gym after work!

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Yesterday was good!

Yesterday was a good one for the diet and exercise. It was the first “perfect” day in, well….months.

Shake for breakfast
Shake for lunch
Lean Cuisine for Dinner
Two 100 calorie bags of popcorn as snacks

Usually, I would stop in and get some pop chips…or go out for dinner with a friend. Nothing wrong with that and I’m able to maintain…but I wasn’t losing. In looking at my goals, I can still reach my monthly goal, but I need to do daily goals along with it.

Today’s goal: repeat a perfect diet day.
So far, so good!

Made it out to the gym last night after work. Did some weights exercises (I’m starting to lift more!) and 30 minutes of elliptical work(353 calories). Today is a Zumba day. I’m going to do an easy work out for 40 minutes today. Maybe the easy version will take things just a little bit slower!

In other news, I’ve started reading a book. Boyfriend 101. It’s kind of like a gay guy’s guide to dating. Mostly, I’m looking to work on myself. So far, it has proven interesting, but it really isn’t much that I haven’t heard before. Listing my wants and needs across different areas. The funny thing was an entire chapter about small talk. Surprise, surprise…they talked about counseling skills. I’ve mostly avoided actively using them because I’ve wanted to avoid “playing shrink” to people. Perhaps I’ll give it a try and see how it works.

I’ve had to be really honest about my efforts. Am I surrounding myself with people who are single and available? No. Bars aren’t the place to do it either. I need to get out there more. This weekend, I think I’m going to go hang out with the Open Doors group and see how it goes. It’ll be a chance to practice small talk and to use those skills of mine.

More updates soon!

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Evening Peoples!

Not too much to report today. Shake for breakfast. Subway salad with egg white and avocado (no dressing/cheese) for lunch, and a Guiltless Chicken Sandwhich with a side salad for dinner with a cup of enchilada soup. Had some Guac w/ chips for an appetizer, but I’m okay with that.

Exercise tonight was just a few miles of walking after dinner. A bit of an off night, but tonight was a date night (hence the Chili’s). We had planned to go paddleboating, but it was closed. So, we walked around. Good conversation. Good times. More in the future? Certainly open, but I’m not going to go all boy crazy anymore. Just going to do my own thing and let the cards fall where they may.

Turns out my back is starting to become sore from training yesterday. He said that’s what he was trying to work, and by golly, he sure did!

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Cough, hack, wheeze

Hey all,
As promised, here’s today’s entry.

The diet was okay. A shake for breakfast and lunch. For dinner, Tim, Nelson, and I went out to Chili’s. I chose the light chicken sandwich. Instead of broccoli, I subbed in for a side salad. Since I abhor broccoli, this was a decent choice. For one of my two snacks for my daily allotment, I ordered a cup of chicken enchilada soup. Everything logged into MFP adequately. I got home and had a 100 calorie bag of popcorn after my run.

Exercise: I made a bonehead move and forgot my gym shorts at home. So, I decided to work out from home and attempt to best my previous mile best. I did it! The previous time was 7:53. The new time.



I still think I could do it faster. Towards the end of the run, there were no lights on the road and I was running in this unpaved and bushy lot. I slowed down a bit so that I wouldn’t trip and injure myself. It sure did feel good to see that time though. Even though I haven’t been actively working on my running, I am still moving forward. Now, I’m having trouble trying to catch my breath. Still very short after that run. Still a little congested and sick, too.

Emotions: I was feeling okay for the most part today. Toward the end of the day, my hunger and caffeine withdrawal started to kick in. Thankfully, dinner remedied both. I remember welcoming the hunger because it meant that my body was going to use itself for energy. Thinking I need to get back to that point.

When I was with Nelson and Tim, they decided to make a trip to this handmade ice cream sandwich shop. I went, but did not order. They smelled delicious though. But, I had my eye on a bigger treat for today.

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They’re not gonna get us…

So, we had a new staff member start at work today. This meant…bagels.


I’m happy to report that I resisted. Instead, I had my protein bar as the mid morning meal.

I want my transformation more than I want the bagel.

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Morning everyone,
It’s been a rough week with some odd occurrences with my weight. This past Sunday was the end of the weight loss competition that my friends hosted. Each weigh in was a slight drop for me. Except for the last weigh in.
I always weight myself before I go in to prepare myself for what’s to come. My scale NEVER matches their scale and theirs always happened to be 4 pounds lighter on the average. This time, the result was identical and shocking. 211.

What. The. Heck.

I never wanted to be there again. But, here I am, so I’m back on a strict diet to bring myself back down. To be honest, my diet has been crap the past few weeks, but not as worse as when my parents visited a few weeks back. Stress has certainly got to me and I eat for comfort. With the new pup terrorizing me and keeping me up at night…and the drama with my all took its toll on me. Even after the weight loss, that’s still the issue that needs to be addressed. I need to develop better coping mechanisms for stress.
An obvious way is to go work out. The funny thing is, I’ve been going to the gym every day after work. I’ve gone running, running in the mountains, and even completed the mud run last week. My physical fitness is improving. My muscles (particularly my arms) are becoming more visible. Is some of the gain muscle mass, yes. But not all of it. My choices resulted in that number on the scale. The weight loss group did before and after pictures and I definitely think I look “better” in the after pictures due to muscle tone and body composition. I’m holding myself accountable here, but I’m not going to beat myself up. It does nothing but delay further progress.

This Saturday is another 5k. This time, it’s part of Phoenix Pride. I’m excited to do this one and I’m even more excited to go to Pride again. Always love seeing all the people.

But, back on topic… I don’t think working out is a way for me to reduce my stress. Where I see myself lacking right now is with my social relationships. While I’m fairly open with my friends, I rarely ever make myself emotionally known to my friends. I can’t really think of many times a friend has seen me to the point of crying. Always thought that friends are for sharing my good times, but not my struggles and stresses. So, I’m going to slowly work in changing that.

I’ve been giving some serious thought to completing my PhD program. Seeing so many of my friends complete it has inspired me. But, that’s also opening the door to a lot of stress that would potentially not be good for me. Do I want the PhD for the right reason? I don’t think so.

I just feel stuck.

Keep eating better. Keep going to the gym. Keep being active in your spare time. It’ll be worth it.

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Am I Ready?

Hey everyone,
No I am not dead, just not inspired to write much as of recently. Maybe it is due to lack of sleep from the new puppy. I finally took him out of my bathroom at night and into my bed with me and Leo. I can now sleep at night, but he still can’t hold it all through the night. That’s life, I suppose.
I’m still hitting the gym for an hour or so every day after work. According to my trainer, my heart rate should be aiming for 180. I’ve never been able to get it that high on the elliptical. I would be lucky to push 140 even with a resistance of 20. The machine doesn’t even feel good at that level. It’s like walking through mud. I did experiment with a few of the different programs and found a heart rate zone workout. Unfortunately, it locks the manual settings and just increases the difficulty until it gets your heart rate to the target zone. To my surprise, it was able to push me to 160 and my calorie burn was greater than some of my hour long workouts. On top of it all, I was covered in sweat. I think I like this workout!
This weekend is the Rogue Run. It’s a 10k with approximately 24 obstacles along the course. Joel invited me out and we, along with a friend of his, will be tackling the course together. I hope I can keep up! Joel and I did a trail run at South Mountain and it quickly got the better of me. Running distances is fine, but running up a mountain….oh, my! I came so close to tossing my cookies. A few dry heaves later and we were able to run down. Running down was so much easier for me. I actually enjoyed jumping from rock to rock! I’ll be sure to take a picture or two as I can!
My diet has been a bit off since my parents visited. Still relatively controlled, but certainly not strict. To combat this, I went out and purchased a lot of fruit for the week. I’d forgotten how delicious an apple could be. Sadly, I did not see grapes at the store. Scott, the trainer, wants me to look into the paleo diet. My old roomie used to do this, and I thought that most of his food was totes gross. Too much meat, not enough bread. I know, I know…bread=bad, but I’m still weighing my options. Egg whites could work for me though. Lots of ways to make a nice omelet with peppers and onions. Hmmm…decisions decisions!

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Here we go again!

Parents are in town and things are going great!

I had been thinking about this for a while now, but I decided to add a new family member to my house.

Meet Connor (at least this is what I think I want to call him)

I don’t like that picture of me, but I can see the definition in my arm starting to show. He’s a shepherd mix and is a bit laid back for two months. I’ve already taught him to use the stairs and we are working on the doggy door. He can come in without assistance already. Smart pup.

Leo seems to get along okay with him. They play and play and play, but Leo’s also never shared food and living space before. Slowly, but surely, they’ll become good brothers 🙂

Took the parents on a hike. They had to stop quite a bit, but they made it all the way to the hidden valley. It felt great to be able to show them something like that. Today, we were supposed to go to the renaissance festival, but my car has been cutting the power steering and it’s to the point where it off more often than on. It’s an electric power steering and there seems to be an issue with the motor. Lovely. Looks like we’re spending the day around the house.

Kinda works out with the new pup. The new animal stores at the mall have all been converted into no kill shelters. Connor was surrendered by his owner. Hope he has a happy future here with me.


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