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Yesterday was good!

Yesterday was a good one for the diet and exercise. It was the first “perfect” day in, well….months.

Shake for breakfast
Shake for lunch
Lean Cuisine for Dinner
Two 100 calorie bags of popcorn as snacks

Usually, I would stop in and get some pop chips…or go out for dinner with a friend. Nothing wrong with that and I’m able to maintain…but I wasn’t losing. In looking at my goals, I can still reach my monthly goal, but I need to do daily goals along with it.

Today’s goal: repeat a perfect diet day.
So far, so good!

Made it out to the gym last night after work. Did some weights exercises (I’m starting to lift more!) and 30 minutes of elliptical work(353 calories). Today is a Zumba day. I’m going to do an easy work out for 40 minutes today. Maybe the easy version will take things just a little bit slower!

In other news, I’ve started reading a book. Boyfriend 101. It’s kind of like a gay guy’s guide to dating. Mostly, I’m looking to work on myself. So far, it has proven interesting, but it really isn’t much that I haven’t heard before. Listing my wants and needs across different areas. The funny thing was an entire chapter about small talk. Surprise, surprise…they talked about counseling skills. I’ve mostly avoided actively using them because I’ve wanted to avoid “playing shrink” to people. Perhaps I’ll give it a try and see how it works.

I’ve had to be really honest about my efforts. Am I surrounding myself with people who are single and available? No. Bars aren’t the place to do it either. I need to get out there more. This weekend, I think I’m going to go hang out with the Open Doors group and see how it goes. It’ll be a chance to practice small talk and to use those skills of mine.

More updates soon!

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Yesterday was my day off from the gym. It felt so good to be able to come home early and wrestle around with the pups. Still felt guilty for not going to the gym, but this is the deal that I’ve made with myself (one day of the work week is off).

This weekend, I have a work engagement on Saturday morning. Since I work close to the town lake, I am considering going kayaking for a few hours. This will be my first time in that type of boat. Should be fun 🙂

Starting to struggle a bit with the diet again. It is just too easy to cheat at times. I need to get back to that place where that initial hunger was a good thing because it meant that my body would use itself for energy. I just need to remind myself of that.

I think I’ll do a task that Jillian mentioned during her talk. Set an alarm on your phone for every hour of the waking day. When that alarm goes off, ask myself if I’m doing what I am supposed to be doing to achieve my goals. That should be helpful.

Alarm set.

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My Day With Jillian

And I thought today was going to be just another day…

Nelson invited me out to brunch with Paul and Joel to start the day off. Nothing too out of the ordinary. I intended to make it a light meal and just go about my day from there. The plan was to stop off at Home Depot and get some rock for my house to start a new landscaping project. Sadly, this never happened. That’s what next weekend is for!

During brunch, Nelson asks if I want to go with him to see Jillian Michaels later that day. While I, of course, wanted to go, I’ve developed a bit of an antisocial condition where I hate leaving the pups at home when I could have otherwise been home to spend time with them. After a bit of persuasion, he convinced me to go see Jillian. After all, it was a free chance to see someone who has inspired me. At this point in my journey, I found that I was certainly lacking inspiration. I am/was half-heartedly going through the motions without much of a drive. While the blogging has kept up, it hasn’t been much about the weight loss in the past few weeks.

After doing some shopping for a new outfit (I’ve since decided that the preppy look just isn’t for me.  The clothes look nice enough, but it just doesn’t match my self concept. This isn’t a bad thing! It just means that I prefer a different style of clothes. I see myself more comfortable wearing things that you would wear on the beach instead of always looking a tad on the sophisticated side. I guess I don’t mind a little sloppy in my life?

We arrived at the theatre and took our seats. Not to our surprise, there were many people from the LGBT community in attendance. I felt right at home.

Jillian took the stage and it was a little surreal. She is exactly as I thought she would be in a live setting. A little abrasive, but able to tell it like it is. Her message was a three pronged approach to getting the most out of your goals and life. While the first two were fitness related, they could certainly be applied towards satisfaction in life in general. The first was about nutrition and weight loss. In short, she commented on something I’ve known for a long time. Calories in vs calories out. I still believe it really is that simple. She went on to discuss metabolic rate calculations and even food preferences (going for fruit with rinds or peels because they wont absorb as many pesticides). While discussing all of this, she would often bring up examples of people who had plateaued and they often did the same things that I did/ am doing. They stopped counting. They let things slide and just wondered why things weren’t working.

Her next part of the presentation was very brief and it talked about exercise. She favored fully body natural movements over that of a machine. Additionally, she accented the importance of heart rate and HIIT training.  Still nice to see  a refresher, but I think I’m doing okay in the exercise department for the most part. I actually don’t agree with her stance on machine workouts for target muscles. Yes, fully body movements are great and exercises are great, but muscles can certainly be targeted and developed.

The last part of her presentation was the one that hit home for me. It was almost straight out of a counselor’s handbook. Looking at our obstacles and even learning to get out of our own way for success. To stop comparing myself to others and to just go for my dreams….my happiness. So often, we stop because we don’t think we deserve it. But…we do. We really do deserve it. We tell ourselves these negative things about ourselves, but we always forget all of these amazing accomplishments to focus on these small setbacks. One quote really hit the nail on the head for me.

“If you don’t fail, you’re not trying hard enough.”

I’ve been so afraid of failing. Afraid of really just going for it and becoming who I know I can be. It’s time for me to take some charge of my life and really go for the things that I want in life.

I am good enough and I will do this.

So help the person, myself included, that tries to get in my way. This is my life and I’m not going to waste a second more of it wondering if I am good enough. Damn it, I am!

While no “new” knowledge was gained, I did leave feeling motivated. And…that’s just what I needed to re-ignite my fire.

So here’s the action plan.

Long Term Weight Loss Goal: 175 Pounds

Deadline: September 1st

Monthly Goals: May 15th- Return to Sub 200 pounds (currently residing at 211).

June 15th- 190

July 15th- 180

September 1st- 175.

Action Plan:

Return to Old Diet: Two Slim Fast (or Slim Fast Alternative-store brand) shakes (breakfast and lunch). Lean Cuisine for dinner. Two 100-200 calorie snacks.

5 days of exercise per week for at least one hour(one day off during the work week and one day off during the weekend).

Log All Food Intake, even if it is repetitive, into myfitnesspal.

One Blog Entry Per Day: Detail food, exercise, life, and emotions.

Why? Because I want to see myself happier. I want to show myself that I am worth it. I want to prove that even though I’ve already lost a lot, I can still keep it up after the bumps in the road.





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Surprising Myself

Today, I surprised myself.

Met a guy online in the past few days and he seems just a bit different than most. Intelligent, well mannered, educated, employed, and goal oriented. Cute, too. So, after chatting for a few days, it turns out he is looking to get more in shape, too. I suggest being work out buddies and he actually took me up on the offer and wanted to meet after work to work out. Surprise, he uses the same gym, but has never actually made use of his membership. He has just started talking with someone else in terms of dating, so that one seems like a no go, but it is wonderful to have such a good buddy.

He took a little bit of coaxing to come out and meet me when it was actually time to make it happen. Apparently, finding something to wear to the gym is a stressful experience. Like many people, myself included, the thought of how one looks often scares people away from working on themselves. Thankfully, he got over it and was only 30 minutes late.

In the meantime, I had my personal training consultation. My trainer is so young, but he seems to know what he’s talking about for the most part. I told him about this pinch in my shoulder when I had been running for an extended period of time and he immediately knew it was one of my arteries in my neck. I need to research that for accuracy, but it’s great to be able to throw him something and get an answer. The consultation only took 10 minutes and we are looking to start next week. More to come on that one!

As I sat in the lobby and waited for the new guy, I surprised myself by getting off the couch and getting active while I waited. I went to do some upper body weight lifting (curls, ab work, rowing, the fly machine). I started on the bike for about 10 minutes before deciding to go back down and sit down. After seeing that he was finally going to come out, I got back off the couch once more and started just walking laps around the outside track. No progress unless you’re actually moving, no?

He finally arrives on my third lap and walks a lap with me before suggesting we jog a lap. We start to take off and he can actually keep up with me. This guy is absolutely gorgeous, too. He’s taller than me (I’m 6 feet tall) and has a nice deep voice. We are about the same shape and size, but he seems to be more “in shape” than I am (toned). After a lap, I suggest we go inside. We head up to the elliptical and both hop on. I thought he would only last for 30 minutes, but we end up doing the whole hour while just chatting away. His heart rate was getting a bit high (180+) so he eventually slowed himself down. After the hour, we treated ourselves to a small pizza at Spinatos. Well earned, in my book!  He ended up paying, too. Surprised me as I didn’t think it was a date, but maybe he was just being nice? Who knows, but we have plans for next Thursday after my parents leave town.

They get here tonight. I’m planning on taking them hiking, paddle boating, and to the Renn. Festival. Lots of physical activity to counteract the incoming increase of food. We also may be getting a playmate for Leo. Stay tuned!

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Another day of Insanity completed. Today was the first day that I am able to “retire” a tape from month 2. Goodbye Max Recovery. You will not be missed, but I will always remember you extended hip flexor workout.

Today saw a return of an old staple to my first diet..100 cal bags of popcorn. Just as delicious as I remember. Still within my calorie budget as well.

I’ve had some recurring thoughts about this blog and its future. Once I reach my goal of 180 (already in “One-derland” as the Biggest Loser phrased it), what happens then? I’m going to remain active and adjust myself into healthy eating habits, but I’m not sure if that’s something worth writing about.

I’m not quitting, but just considering changing direction. Who knows?

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Gotta Get Thru This

Never thought I would say this, but I miss running a bit. Not the distance, but just the activity. Looks like I’m going for a run this weekend!

I will not speak of the crimes against nature committed against my diet yesterday for dinner. Just know that it was bad…very bad. Felt sick during my Insanity workout and had to learn that lesson the hard way. Yummy, but not worth it. Good times with friends doesn’t mean that I shouldn’t watch what I eat.

Today’s workout was invigorating. I came home and wanted to knock it out. And I did! Part of me wanted to just hit the stop button, but nope! I’m almost through this and I’m not going to stop now.

Found another guy with a good amount of weight loss and the direction is now clear. My future will be in weight training to tighten my skin and fill it out with muscle. Gym membership, please be kind!

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Ok, so I weighed myself a day early, 202.5.

This is depressing. I know I’ve had a few cheat meals in the past few weeks, but I don’t think that accounts for the gain. They certainly didn’t help, but if 3500 calories is a pound, then it still shouldn’t have gone up. Especially considering the running, rock climbing, and starting month 2 of insanity, I was expecting the scale to go down.

202.5 isn’t that bad as it has hardly moved in 15 days.

Possible reasons:
Muscle gain (not sure how much I buy into it being from that)
Too many calories (even with the Insanity diet).
Normal body fluctuations in a day (carrying food, water weight, and all that jazz)

I’m leaning more towards items 2 & 3. I really don’t think my body easily adjusted from the low cal diet that I was on prior to insanity. Could it still be recovering from that diet and holding on to food? Maybe… I’m starting to wonder if I’m experiencing a difference between the two diets. I’m not necessarily more energetic in my day. Eating more has always been great, but I just don’t know. I’m tempted to go back to the old ways for a day and see how I’m handling month 2.

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Steady as she goes!

Tonight, profanities and rude hand gestures were not thrown at my TV during Insanity. It was still hard as hell, but I think that my body is slowly adapting. I know that I need this. My complaining and cursing aren’t going to give me any quicker results. Getting involved and focusing on the task at hand will. Tonight was back to the first workout of Month 2. Still don’t like it, but it is more manageable.

I’ve gotten a few of my coworkers wanting to try Insanity. I’m excited to see how they do with it! They are going to be great! I was telling one of my coworkers that I was still trying to lose another 20-30 pounds and they looked at me with a blank stare and said, “Where is that going to come from?”  It took me by a bit of surprise. In my mind, I’m still piloting my old body. While I can do more and fit into smaller things, my self perception of my body has not changed. Of course I can lose another 20-30 pounds, but I personally think that I need to lose a lot more than I need to. I’m working on that.

Speaking of working on that, I was playing with my loose skin after my shower. Odd and slightly gross for me, but I wanted to see if any ab muscles were there. Still can’t see them when I

try to pull my skin right, but I did notice a very slight V shape going on. This was a nice surprise. Always wanted one of those adonis belt looking things. Now if my skin would just cooperate!



Fat! (Photo credit: LexnGer)

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Let’s do more push-ups!

This month of Insanity, I am not enjoying it.

When I first started, I remember seeing this woman on the infomercial talking about how she now loves doing push ups and dares people to challenge her to a push up competition. As I was going through month one, I began to wonder where she was getting this. We barely did any push ups. Now, I know. The Plyo workout felt like several different types of push ups. I almost felt like Bubba from Forrest Gump.

We’ve got: power push ups
Push up jacks
Sideways push ups
Squat push ups
Vertical push ups
And much more!

As you may or may not know, I don’t have much upper body strength. So…naturally….I hate push ups. This has stopped being fun and is now working me. Still rewarding, but just exhausting. This is good, I think. Exercise is supposed to push me past my formal self. I’m going to make it, even if I don’t like it along the way.

Keep on swimming..just keep on swimming.

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